Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Shoe! Let me shop in peace.

My childhood was an exercise in my body trying to catch up with my feet – they grew, and grew...and were a constant source of irritation for these reasons –

The school that I went to specified what shoes we needed to wear. I soon outgrew the 'children's' sizes, and shortly after, the adult female ones. After 8th standard, I was constantly sold guys shoes, since they didn't stock my size in the ladies department. By this logic, the average female Indian foot size in the 80s was probably 4. I was a 10.

Just to illustrate how traumatized I was, here is a true story. When I was in middle school, my parents and I went to a new shoe store in the neighbourhood at the beginning of the school year to purchase white canvas shoes, as dictated. After much ado, the salesman was finally able to dig up the only pair they had in my size from the dark recesses of their store-room in the back. When they took the shoes out of the box so I could try them on, my Mum collapsed into fits of laughter. When she was finally able to stop, I asked her what was so funny. Her response - "The shoes say Cinderella on the inside, and she supposedly had the tiniest feet in her kingdom. Now, isn't that ironic?"

Moving right along....

Everytime I saw a pair of non-school shoes I liked, I would walk away sad. Of course they weren't available in my size! Time after time of being directed to the men's department and being relegated to wearing ugly shoes because they were the only ones that fit, led to my shoe addiction (This is what I choose to believe :P, so say what you will).

Thankfully, my feet stopped growing when they hit the double digits. I continued my quest for stores that would have nice looking shoes in my size. A new store called Lifestyle opened up in Chennai (my hometown) and a group of us from college went there excitedly. My joy knew no bounds when I discovered that they had a whole section of stylish shoes, in sizes 9 and above. Either statistics had shown them that the average had gone up, or there was some kind soul finally understanding of us shoe-starved bigfoots lumbering about the city. I'm convinced the CEO of this store was a woman with large feet. I made my first shoe purchase sans parental input! I went home with the shoes, and my mother was very pleased for me until she found out how much they cost. Little did she know this would only be the first of many such transgressions *insert diabolical smile*.

Over the next few years I amassed quite a collection, and was constantly ribbed by family and friends alike for my insatiable shoe-lust and the fact that my large shoes were making it difficult for other people at home to use the shoe closet. Have I mentioned that my close ones tend towards the dramatic?

In any case, I moved to the US to be with the spouse some years ago, and discovered that here was a country where I was the average! What do you think happened? Let's just say I occupy 90% of the allotted space for footwear in the house.

The other night, the spouse was asking me why I buy so many shoes and how could I possibly hope to use them all. He also raises his eyebrows every time a shoe box comes home, as if to say, "another!?" but usually refrains from commenting other than cautiously offering his opinion when I ask "How do they look?". I spent about 15 minutes trying to defend myself, and then realized that the spouse is a little bit of a foodie. I said - "Look, I think you've spent more on food over this year than I have on shoes. We eat out maybe twice-thrice a week, and I buy shoes once in maybe 4-5 months. At least I get to keep my purchases for over 24 hours!".

I rest my case.


Monday, September 19, 2011

No Fairytale





My story is no fairytale
Suspense, Romance, that's still a mystery....
There is no saying who's coming
Or what the next will be....

I don't want to be no Cinderella
and deal with crazy curfews
I don't care about Prince Charming
Pumpkin chariots or fancy shoes!

I don't want to be no Sleeping/Beauty
Day dreaming about fantasies
Acceptance is all that is needed
For you and me in today's reality

I don't want to be no Snow White
Relatives guiding like the 7 dwarfs alike
Nor be like her.... all fair & lovely
For much of my folk's delight

I don't want to be no Rapunzel
Twirling her tresses so long
Castles built up in the air
Just adds stress that prolongs

I don't want to be no Ariel
Curious of life outside the Sea
I'm happy living in my own shell 
Just leave me to be me!

Saturday, September 17, 2011

I'm back, or am I?

Wow! Apparently it's been close to a year since my last post. They don't kid when they say time flies when you're having fun or even otherwise.

Before you decide to rubbish my excuses for not posting (I'm optimistically assuming that there is at least one person who checks this blog for updates), I think you might feel sympathetic when you hear what I've been doing with all that time.

I moved to Austin in 2006, and spent the better part of that year getting used to a new person, a new life and a new job. Needless to say, I didn't have much of a social life. Towards the end of that year, I decided that it was high time to build a social circle for myself, and begin my life in the US in earnest. I'm not one of those people who can make endless small talk, neither am I a fan of large groups.

After much thought I decided the best way to meet new people would be to take a class of some sort. But what? After going through a number of options in my head, I decided to go with something I was familiar with, and so began my effort to learn Bharatanatyam at the ripe age of 26. I have to admit I almost gave up every month, and would probably have thrown in the towel if not for my wonderful teacher, and a lovely Ivorian woman. Many aching limbs later, I began to see some progress and was encouraged to continue. Time went by and the adult class grew in strength. I now knew at least 6 wonderful people that I could call friends. My teacher created multiple opportunities for us to perform what we learned in class, so that we would be motivated to practice and get rid of our self-consciousness. The many practices resulted in all of us becoming a pretty close group.

Cut to 2010, I had fallen in love with art form, and wanted to make faster progress. I am most motivated by goals and so I decided that the only way I would put in the effort to get to a good standard was if I had to train for a performance, and approached my teacher with the idea of doing my Arangetram. She was incredibly supportive and so the end of 2010 and a better part of 2011 were spent training for the recital. (You wondered where I was going with this story, didn't you?). Anyway, I had my Arangetram on the 31st of July in India, and my teacher was happy, so I'm happy!

In addition to this, I had also signed myself up for a theater production in 2010 where I had to look like this - poster, center. My mother was upset, my grandmothers horrified, and my father amused. This face didn't do great things for my marriage, but one simply cannot have it all. It also didn't do great things for a 5 year old who was petrified when I was on stage. Then, his father came to the conclusion that if he showed his boy that I was a real, normal person under the mask, all would be well. BIG mistake. When he was brought backstage, he erupted into a hysterical bout of crying until I begged his parent to take him away. I think I understand why my marriage was strained for a while there.

So, factor in rehearsals 3 days a week for the production, 5 days a week for my recital, throw in a healthy dose of work, housework and trying to appease the spouse for all the time I wasn't spending with him. Now tell me that I should also have blogged.